Also: the not-quite-scar marks from the horizontal lines i cut in my arm last February when she told me that she knew I loved her more are pretty well faded and hidden by the arm hair I’ve finally convinced myself to grow out. I think by this time next year they’ll be almost impossible to notice which is like, a metaphor or whatever
#self harm tw#it’s not a way I normally express my emotions n I haven’t done it since#but it was the only way i could really express my pain without hurting her#which was something i cared about at that point#it was less noticeable at the time bc i had these horrible rashes and scabs up my forearms#gross lol