Having an anxiety disorder must have been so wretched in the past it would be like my husband left for america two months and I haven’t gotten any letters from him so he’s probably dead. Or something happened to his ship at sea and they’re resorting to cannibalism or he’s found a new woman or he’s in the hospital with blood coughs. Or they just haven’t reached america yet but he’s probably dead he’s definitely dead oh GOD what am i going to do. Like for months