Bc i have anxiety i am constantly worrying about how my actions appear to an outside observer who is scrutinizing my every move but i occasionally take a perverse pleasure in doing inexplicable things
For example i have a bunch of color gel pencils for my notes and planner buf i make a point not to “color code” anything and just switch colors to break up blocks of text and make it more colorful. It pleases me to imagine my imaginary supervisor frantically flipping back and forth between my notebook and planner, trying to decode my inscrutable color choices