I keep wondering why Iโ€™m feeling โ€œinexplicablyโ€ sad and then I remember that in two weeks Iโ€™m leaving the job Iโ€™ve had for four years and my childhood home that i love so much to spend 10 weeks on the other side of the country and i have no idea what im going to do or where Iโ€™m going to live after that ahhhhhhhhhh