God it wouldn’t even be that big a deal to me except that you could already see literal all of my bigger veins under my skin bc I’m pale as fuck now it’s like creepy dead veins on top of big throbbing veins and I’m only 20 and thin and I walk a lot and sit with my legs propped up so WHY also I’m in the middle of a huge cystic breakout even though my period was a week ago I’m so pissed at my body rn also it’s almost 4 am and I can’t sleep and I have to deal w my extended family tomorrow and I wanna throw up