I think the main problem I have. And i think it is actually quite common. Is that on one hand I desperately want every person i meet to love me unconditionally. And on the other hand I am a reprehensible ghoul

meeting people irl and making friends (???!!) is really wreaking havoc on my psychei am beautiful. beloved. i am an evil monster. a hag. we are in love. they are just being nice bc they pity me