Genuinely find the idea of magically manifesting your thoughts into reality so disturbing like I can’t imagine walking around feeling responsible for all the thoughts in my head beyond how they effect my behavior

personally i like to be able to wish death on someone i never interact with and not feel bad about it bc it literally cannot affect themand not having to worry when bad things happen to me its bc of my thoughts or energy or whateverwhen i was a kid i thought my fingernails absorbed the energy of the colors they touched so i was always digging them into things that werethe right colors to counteract the times i touched bad colors and i also i was constantly imagining layers of protection around myself toprotect myself from evil energies that were trying to poke meand then i had an eating disorder and then i had therapy and medication and majored in biopsych and now im like why would you choose to tryand control reality with your thoughts instead of accepting that you are an animal and your thoughts are a bunch of fast chemistrywell. anyways