I’ve bought all my bus tickets for my trip (like 8 tickets) except a ticket back home to san jose 🤔 maybe bc very deep down…. on a psychological level… I don’t want to return to this shitty town and enormous depressing neighborhood that’s like 30% homeless people and 60% weird garbage on the ground and face unemployment and be reminded of all my failures romantically and career-wise 🤔 who knows though the human mind is a mystery. Anyways maybe I’ll just extend my airbnb stay in eugene indefinitely and get married and spend the rest of my life there in eugene and my san jose roommates can just sell my stuff or whatever 🤷🏼‍♀️